Recently a childhood friend shared this picture of us in elementary school.
We are either in 1st grade or 2nd. (Can you spot the little me?)
And there is such a divine timing in this that I feel grateful. Just about 2 weeks ago iI had an automatic reaction to something and felt as if I was disillusioned about the world and feeling as if I did not belong to this reality. While it is true that I don’t belong to this reality I know that this world as it is, is our playground and there are so many amazing things I am grateful for.
There was a deep sadness I went to and I knew this was not relevant to me now, though it was someone(s) or something I was perceiving.
I asked “who am I being right now?” and this exact age came out and wanted to have her voice heard. I listened to my 7-8 year old self. Elementary school was a huge disappointment to what I wanted to experience in life, even at that age I knew something greater was possible but the system puts you into this training or rather un-training of you leaving everything you know is true about you. So you can become like everyone else so you learn the rights and wrongs of this reality and not follow your knowing. I innately knew this was a system of putting you into a form and structure.
While I value learning and have an innate curiosity about everything in life and universe and beyond, it also came with being forced to let you go.
I heard her feeling caged and not feeling that she belonged there. She had dreams that she had to let go of and made herself wrong for not loving the school like most of her friends seemed to be doing.
And I listened to everything she had to say and set her free from where she felt trapped and assured her that she was not wrong and that her dreams are now my reality.
This is such a freedom of letting go. I am so grateful to the tools of Access Consciousness® that contributed with tools on being me in this world and enjoy life the way I know and not according to the rules and regulations dictated and forced on you.
I have an immense gratitude for the inner child work I learned through Regression and amazing trainer and mentor Trisha Caetano.
I sensed that, that little girl that was still stuck in that trauma – like frozen in time – was grateful that I reached out and got her. No one else needed to get me, but me now. At that age it was not totally understandable to her what was going on and thus also some form of confusion was also frozen in her world.
With being seen and being heard and being in total allowance the confusion dissolved and that stuck energy melted into flickers of possibilities. And this picture showing up on facebook through a friend’s field was so beautiful.
I am grateful for me choosing what I would like my life to be regardless of what this world dictates. We all have memories of having to give up being us and mostly they are hidden from us, that’s how we learned to cope.
What if now is the time to get that there is no more a requirement of coping, but reconnecting with who we be one choice at a time and truly living the way only we know we desire to?
What is available to me now that was not possible before?
